Taking a break

Hey guys and gals.

I've been told it happens to everyone, but the time has come that I need some time away from SL, so as of tonight, I'm taking a break. I'll probably log on occasionally - to pay my rent, say hi, etc... - but I'm not going to be committed to time frames, or anything else.

It used to be that I had to pry myself away from SL - I had fun, my friends were there, and all that.... - now, I have to force myself to log on to DJ, or because I think I should.

The biggest problem, though, is that SL has started to mirror RL far too much in some ways... painful, unhappy ways... it's become another source of stress, frustration, rejection and heartache. I don't need that. Someone I trust told me that I'm more unstable now than they've ever seen me, and I think that was a scary enough wake-up call to make me see that I needed to do something major to change these patterns. I don't want to be that black cloud that everyone has to duck out of the way of... I think some people are already, but they're too nice to say anything right to me.

So I'm going to take some time to let myself level back out, gain some perspective, and hopefully, when I return, SL can be fun again.

I know I'll really miss some of you, and I hope you'll keep in touch (via email, facebook, or even just by leaving me a message once in a while), but there are some people that I need to get some distance from, and the way my SL was, I couldn't do that without more effort than I was willing to expend.

Take care of yourselves, and don't do anything I wouldn't do.

Love,
Becka